Tuesday, July 21

Seeing Him Makes Me Happy~

Today I saw him and it made me feel so happy. I didn't see him just for 4 days la but somewhere inside my heart I miss him A LOT!!! But I didn't answer him when he asked me if I miss him or not, well I'm a bit shy to admit it.

Its weird that I often asked him about breaking up thing but to be truth I have no attention in doing so cause I still love him and want him to be my side when I feeling down or lonely. There's so many stupid question I ask him but the thing is I'm just too CURIOUS to know how much he cares about me. But when I have problem or any trouble, sometimes I don't want him to know or notice it, that's because I don't want him to worry about me too much.

Every time I went to humanity class, I can't talk to him cuz I'm a bit shy especially this morning. He just came back from Tambunan. I'm so HAPPY when I see him but too shy to even look at him that morning. But when he's standing outside the window looking at me, I go red la a bit and said his name. That feeling was unexplainable!!!!!

Man!!! I wish I can tell him how much I care and love him but I don't want him to hear me said it...I want him to...just know about my feelings towards him. Shhhhhh~ don't tell him but I read his diary tempat cikgu Morene that...hahaha. And I say he do care about me...a lot~ hahaha. I also write about him in my diary ba. Awww~ ahahaha..ok I'm done.hahaha.

Thursday, July 2

I'm not asleep yet? Also a mesej for Titing.

It's been a long time I didn't update my blog and now it's time. Ting, I don't
know why you feel isolated but when I read your entry just now
I feel like you miss being with them (evie, eca, lana and del) du
h memang la.

Lek ba kau, I think your under pressure now, so stay relax. I wish I was in the same class
as you too, doing the things we always do when we're with the people behind us, back at convent.
I think you should be more happy having the high school life that we miss not only for 5 years
but the rest of our primary years. I don't know if I'm advising you or not but I don't want
you to be this way la or feel this way. Cheer up, cuz after 1 1/2 years we wo
n't be in this kind of situation anymore. Jgn la kau sedih2 nanti ada orang risau (me la that..haha).

And I still can't believe just because of internet I'm willing to stay up late walaupun ada sikul
hari ini. hahahaha, soi. Gerenti ngantuk ni pg skul, adalah orang yang koloboi ni nanti baru mau pg mandi lagi ni..hahaha. Now I feel a little regret why I don't go for class kemanusiaan, but there's certain things can't be helped in this kind of situation such as.....ada la tu. Rahsia, hahaha. Mostly my member all in class kemanusiaan and I want to feel siting beside suzai again and not forgetting fedel. Mesti banyak crita kita hari2 tu kan. hahaha.


Anyway, anyhow....I'm aiming for sucess though (DUH!!! mestilah. sep
a mau gagal..palui). Ting, my last
request from you THINK POSITIVE. ahaha. seriously. I hope this can cheer you up a bit....


look at him...smiling.